Chill-dren

I got to play with two beautiful and smart girls today. It was such a
joy being with them. I really had a wonderful time, I did not expect
today to be this beautiful. Thank You. As if playing with these two
bundles of joy was not enough, I also got to ride a seesaw! *woot!* It
has been a long time since I last rode a seesaw and I had such a
blast. After the seesaw, we had an isaw fest. I have forgotten how
yummy the isaw was until today so I had to steal another isaw
*hehehe!!!*, well, it was more of a donation. Thanks! :) I also got to
have a red velvet cupcake which is my most favorite cupcake flavor
hands down. *yummy!!!* I also got to see a kid I used to play with her
when she was three, she is twelve now. She called me Tita Friend and
my other friend Tito Monster back then. She still remembers me. I was
touched.

In between all these, I had great company and so much laughter.

I thank You dear Lord for this wonderful day.

You truly are my Lord and my Shepherd, I shall not want. In verdant
pastures You give me rest and beside still waters you restore my soul.

Thank You.

Happy Birthday Jesus! :)

Petition

Dear Lord, please let me be able to channel all my focus and effort on
this one project that I am doing right now. I really need to.

Thanks a bunch!

Love,
Me

My Playlist

I just realized that the playlist of my life has changed. I am glad.

Thank You.

Ghost

I do not like ghosts but today, I find a new meaning in the word ghost.

Thank You.

PS. I had my hair cut really, really short yesterday and so far, I
think I like it. I am not sure how other people feel about it but I
really am liking it *crazy laugh*!

Usurfer Surfing Trip

I was not able to do what I was supposed to do today. *Boo!!!*

I instead, obsessed on the coming surf trip's logistics. While I was
able to get that out of my to do list. I have my Chapter 1 to rewrite.
I hope to be able to finish it soon! *Arrgh!!!* Hopefully, before the
surf trip so I can have my adviser look at it.

Tomorrow, I have two classes but I hope to squeeze in dissertation
time tomorrow.

Thank You Lord.

I know You will help me.

Inching Away or Inching Closer?

I just do not want to forget this quote by Asha Tyson:

Your journey has molded you for your greater good.
And it is exactly what it needed to be.
Dont think that you have lost time.
It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now.
And now is right on time.

I need to remember this all the time because I find myself often
ridden with regret. Quite a different version of me from the younger
me. Perhaps because so many years ago, I did not see myself as wiling
time away. Now, more than often, I seem to think that I am watching
Father Time carry me farther and farther into the void of old age. :)

Through this quote I realize that I am where I am and I must continue
to trudge on because each day brings me closer to who I need to be.

Ex-cited and Exhausted

I am strangely excited for class tomorrow.

It's sad that though I brought my dumbbells out, I was unable to use
them... I hope to do Yoga tomorrow. Colds, please go away.

Thank You dear Lord for allowing me make it to mass today. *whew!* It
was a late notice from the coordinator and I had to be the substitute
commentator. I thank You Lord because I am less nervous now and I
still get to enjoy the mass.

I thank You dear Lord because I know little by little You are changing me.

I hope I can keep this up.

Thank You for so many things but today I am most grateful for my
family, my mom in particular.

Thank You so much for my mommy and for Mama Mary. I feel Your love
through them.

Oh and yeah, I am happy I am getting published on Springer!!! *woot!*
Never mind that I won't be able to download the paper because I do not
have an account on Springer *hehe!!!* First!!! :)

I now have an IEEE and a Springer!!! *woot!!!*

When oh when will I get a Journal? :)

Huggies

I love hugs!

I also love moments like this:

Me: *singing Marry Me by Train* Maaaaareeeeeh meeeeh....
Sister: Halloween is over, why are you still trying to scare me? (In
the vernacular)

Priceless.

Three Blind Men

The homily today was about the blind men who told Jesus Christ, "Lord
have pity on us.". They did not directly ask the Lord to heal them.

The priest said, more often than not we ask the Lord for exactly what
we want. We think we know better than Him. When we do not get what we
ask for we get disappointed. The priest said it's normal to be
disappointed. However, we have to remember that the Lord gave us the
best that He had, His Son. He gave us His Son. That should clue us in
that He will always give to us what is best.

I am among those who ask for exactly what she wants. I have always
believed in another passage, "Ask and you shall receive, know and the
door shall be opened.". I realized today that the source of my
frustration is precisely this. I have to be humble and trust in the
Lord. I am at His mercy after all.

Today's Psalm response was "The Lord is my light and my salvation.".

I shall not trust on mortals but on the Lord who has mercy.

Oh and yeah... On a very happy note, I have found the medal!!! *yahoo!!!*

Another realization that I had, I am pretty. :) *haha thick face!!!*
Seriously though, today I realized that I am pretty, lovable and sexy.
If you have not realized that about yourself, it is not yet too late!
:)

Ciao! :)

Lost

I cannot believe I have lost the medal after a week. I seriously
cannot find it. I even thought of going home to get it when I realized
I did not have it in my pocket. When I checked where I usually place
it, it was not there. I checked all my pants' pockets and it was
nowhere to be found. I am still hoping I can find it tomorrow. I am
beginning to wonder if I really did take it with me the day I wore my
formal clothes but forgot where I placed it exactly. I can distinctly
remember carrying it with me last Sunday though... *tsk...*

I am not liking myself right now.

Apart from the medal, I feel like I am losing my sense of self as
well... Not liking this at all.

Must get my act together.

Then again, maybe I just need to run and swim. It has been two weeks
after all. *sigh*

I need endorphins.

Rainbow After The Rain

Last Sunday was a great day for me because I got to go see my college
buddies again. It was surreal to see their kids. I can still vividly
remember snippets of our college days. Who would have thought that in
a few years our lives would be like this. It is always a joy for me to
hold in my embrace kids. The more I hold kids in my arms, the more I
realize that I should be teaching younger minds. The more I am
reminded that I also want my own kids... But I do not want to whine
tonight... Actually, I am sick of whining in my head. I just have to
put everything unto Him and He will take care of everything.

As if being with kids was not enough, I had another sweet surprise
waiting for me that night. It was just what I needed after two weeks
of agony. I know, I know I am such a brat. I understand that other
people are in much more pain but we all have different thresholds
okay. Mine is not that great. Don't be hatin'.

Today was another nice bonus. I was not particularly cheerful this
morning but this afternoon and evening was a blast. I got to see
somebody's dream come to fruition. Congratulations! I am so happy and
proud of you!

Medal

I was at PGH today to see my dentist and I got there an hour early. I
was pleased to know that they have a 1215 mass at their chapel so I
decided to hear mass. There was somebody who talked about Our Lady of
the Miraculous Medal. I was unable to listen to the rest of the talk
because my mom called but Our Lady made an apparition and has been
interceding for many years now.

They gave out medallions after the mass. I waited for my medallion
before going to see my dentist. I was pleased. I finally understood
the reason for the medallions. At St. Paul, they used to give out the
medallions every October (Universally known as the month of the Holy
Rosary) but I never knew until today that there is Our Lady of
Miraculous Medal behind it. I hope I will not lose my medallion. :)

The homily was again about trials, and chaos and how after all this,
everything will be better.

I thank You dear Lord for the comforting message. I thank You for
always sending me people and comforting words and love.

Yesterday, the homily was about becoming happier and holier. I think
the last few days of turmoil has indeed made me, ironically, happier
and holier. Through the last few days, I was able to take a peek of
somebody who was in emotional anguish. Suddenly, I understood people I
used to not understand. Suddenly, I was more forgiving, more
sympathetic. During the last few days, I felt more love than I have
from the usual and the unusual places. So while the last few days were
horrific and I had moments in the morning when I did not want to get
up, I felt loved.

I realized that sometimes we demand love in the one place where we
cannot get it and totally ignore the abundance of love in other places
that are totally within our reach. We exhaust ourselves obsessing only
to realize in the end that there is more than enough love for you to
go around. Just not in the one place you are expecting it to be but
sometimes, that is fine. You would be surprised that, in time, that
one place may give you some love when you stop obsessing.

Thank You.

I guess it is true that only in the heat of the fire, and the
bludgeons of heavy steel can you forge the finest of swords. Dear
Lord, I also realized in the last few days, that I am fine with the
idea that I am not the best of swords... Enough of the heat and the
bludgeons please. :)

Thanks! :)

I only have 12 days left until my deadly deadline. I better really get
crackin'!!!

Tonight I sleep, tomorrow I work like crazy! :)

*excited!!!*

Crossroads?

I signed up for GodWhispers.com many months ago. Lately, I have bee
going through a rough patch and this email was in my inbox today:

When an obstacle is in front of you, it simply means there are better
paths elsewhere. Paths that are a hundred times better, a thousand
times better, a million times better!

Yippee,

God

P.S. So excited for you, Rhia.

Incidentally, today's homily was also about difficulties. According to
the priest, difficulties are encountered so that better things may
come. While difficulties may sometimes be caused by evil, to triumph
over this always results to a better you, a happier you and a holier
you.

What does this all mean? I am confused...

Shall I do what I normally do? Stand by and watch things unravel?
They say, when You let the Lord do what He does best, You will be
surprised. Please do Your work dear Lord because I am not sure how
long I can withstand being like this... This is driving me nuts.

Let things start getting better.

Please.

Please.

Please.

I really can use a break from all this. *takes a whiff of happiness from bottle*

Cloudy and High

I am giddy happy. I have not been this way in a long time.

I am not sure if it has to do with the Snow Lady and Custle Pao intake.

In the meantime, let me get back to my dissertation.

*floats in my own nimbus cloud of happiness* Isn't it ironic that I
call it nimbus when nimbus as been associated to rain and rain has
been associated to turmoil. Let me change that. *floats in my own
cumulus cloud of happiness* Hmm... but then cumulus are relatively low
clouds. Puffy, yes but they are low... I feel high... *floats in my
own stratus cloud of happiness* Then again, this one has snow and rain
and often not so puffy... *I am in cloud nine enough said*. I don't
understand why but I am and that's all I care about for now.

Super Saturday

Yes, the kind with a red cape and an underwear worn outside. That kind
of super! :)

Tonight was eriously one of the best nights ever!!!

Tonight was loaded and packed with so many sweet surprises! Soh going
to my bottle. :) That makes me sound like a witch *hahaha!!!*. Please
see older entries for context.

I have never been this happy to hear my name said out loud. I never
liked my first name much but hearing it from one of the two oh so cute
and innocent kiddos was priceless. *sigh* I wanted to take the
munchkins home *hahaha!!!*.

I also got a red velvet cupcake. Seriously a great night.

Oh and the movie was funny, I cried and cried laughing.

Thank You Lord!

Now on to the more serious stuff.... Ack.

Little Packages of Cheer

There is no sound on this Earth that beats the sound of happy children.

Thank You for the gift of allowing me to hear innocent kids shriek and
giggle and laugh. My heart melts as I think about it now. Highlight:
One cute little girl said " I love you." to me. *sigh*

This is going straight to my happiness bottle around my neck. :)

Oh and yeah, started programming my prototype today. Am not sure
what's going to happen but it feels nice to be programming. :)

Time Capsule

Today was another blast. I can get used to this. :) Today felt like I travelled back in the past. I was smiling like crazy. I am still smiling like crazy. I want to bottle up all my happiness and memories and wear it as a necklace so I can take a whiff of it whenever I want to remember today.

Thank You. :)

*smiling like crazy*

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ROM

Thank You for a beautiful day.

I want to burn today to my memory.

Miss

I miss having a hand to hold. I miss my hand being held. i miss having a hand search for my hand. I miss being wanted. I miss being assured every single day without my bidding. I miss having someone to lean against. I miss being pulled close in an embrace. I miss being longed for. I miss being able to stare into somebody's eyes and seeing myself in delight. I miss feeling warm lips against mine. I miss being wanted. I miss being acknowledged. I miss being somebody's world.

Missing all these make me feel I am missing out on life. I have to stop missing these because life is right in front of me happening. It is not going to wait.

I have to move on, regardless whether I will ever have all that I am missing. I trudge on, wandering listlessly hoping and dreaming.

I dream of being able to dream aloud with another. I dream of staring in the same direction and painting the same picture. I dream of long conversations in silence. I dream of a lifetime of love and laughter and adventure. Others are able to find it, I hope I can too. I want beyond what I miss. I want my dream.

I look around now and I wonder where do I go from here?

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Le Sick

Is me.

I just saw my All Laser Lasik Surgery video.

What the hell was I thinking subjecting myself to such a risky operation?!

They cut a flap on my eye and used a metal stick to lift it. That flap
could have torn or there could have been folds and stuff and then that
would have messed things up. I am not saying the doctors were
careless... I am saying many things could have gone wrong. I thank the
Lord because of my recovery. I was praying as I went through the
entire harrowing experience.

I am glad and grateful that my eyes are doing okay according to the
doctor. I can now go back to my usual activities save for swimming. I
have put on my eye cream again... It has been seven days since I last
used it and I can really feel the lack of moisture taking its toll...
Vanity again.

I also found out today that I can still sky dive and scuba dive and
expose myself in high pressure areas even after Lasik. Initially, I
thought they were going to put in lenses in my eyes but apparently,
they just laser the lens of my eyes to fix the refraction.

I could see fear in my eyes as the machine did its thing. I squirmed
as I saw the metal apparatuses on on my eyes and how they treated my
eyes as though it were some sturdy object... Those are my eyes!!!

If I saw a video like this before I had my eyes done, I would never go
through with it...

So far I have just been experiencing drying of the eyes, which I
expected. I hope it does not worsen though... Apart from that, I think
I am okay. I still see some halos when I look at the light directly
but other than that I am fine.

I am delighted by the clearness of things and the fact that I need not
remove my lenses and wear eye glasses. I can take a bath and see my
body parts *info overshare*, I can plank and do other mat exercises
and not have my eye glasses falling off my face. I cannot wait to run!
;)

Hmm... I think I will invite my sister to run this Sunday so she can
also prepare for her HSBC run. :)

2M2M

There was a time when it was not tack to write down too many too
mention but then that was a time when very few things were considered
tacky... Like... Hmm... I am sure there were a few things but there
isn't a single one coming to me now. Blame it on the memory... or
perhaps the lack of taste *relatively!* back when I was young.

A lot has happened to me the past few days. I had my first ever trip
to Vietnam. I am not sure when the next one will be but I am darn sure
it will be for a business trip again because otherwise I will not go
and visit again. I found myself cooped up in one place most of the
time. Their city is nice but then again, I am not that big a fan of
cities... except New York City but that is understandable. :)

I had my Lasik Surgery after I got back from Vietnam and that got me
consumed. Also, I had to finish my machine project in my online class
at Stanford U. Ack... That ate my time. Big time. Now I have another
one. I hope I can do this faster because I have to get back to my
dissertation. I want to kick myself already. I have this feeling that
this should not be as hard as I am making it look. I am just
sensationalizing this and I am hating myself for it.

I am happy I do not have to wear glasses anymore and that the first
thing that I see in the morning is the picture of clarity. That and of
course everything in disarray but clear disarray mind you not the
blurry botch of mixed palette of colors. Happiness!

I went and had my surgery alone. I got into a taxi and got home alone
and most people scolded me because they said I should have asked
somebody to come with me. I did not want to inconvenience another
person and besides I figured whomever I bring along will just freak
and it will not help my nerves either. Besides, my mom did take
herself to the hospital to deliver all three of her children.

I really have to work double time... I do not like the idea but I have
to *heheheh!*.

Thank You dear Lord for a basketful of sweet goodies yesterday. They
made my day. They were so good. :) Thank You for always keeping me
safe and also my loved ones. Thank You for surrounding me with so much
love.

I pray that I may be able to go back to my normal routine very soon
because I can feel my body fat sneaking up on me already. That and the
aging process is beginning to get to me... Arrgh!!!

Then again, I am happy. I guess that is what matters at the end of the
day. That and the number of people I have made happy. Which reminds
me... I do not think the number of the latter is that high yet.

I better sleep. Will try to work on the machine project tomorrow and
get my eyes checked. It has been a week since my Lasik procedure. I
hope everything is fine. I hope both eyes are still 20/20. :)

Sweets

Good morning sa inyo...

My morning was beautiful... sweet, creamy, chilly, chocolatey hehehe...

Thank You Lord for the surprise. It made my morning. I also appreciate another sweet surprise midweek.

Thoughtfulness has always made me smile like crazy. Thank You Lord for making my heart smile. :)

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At Peace

I am strangely at peace today. Perhaps it's because it's the feast day of St. Francis of Asissi or maybe the Lord has finally answered my prayer.

Thank You for this gift.

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Class

I have just enrolled in and had my first class in one of the online
courses at Standford University. I have been following the professor
for a while now via iTunesU and I am glad I enrolled because it really
gives me a feel of an actual lecture class with recitation and quizzes
haha!!! So far I am doing well. I had two quizzes already. I had to
recall my Calculus. Gah! I think I need to read Leithold TC7 again. :)

Can you tell I am excited? We just did linear regression today and
gradient descent (and how this works if used for linear regression). I
do not teach this in class but maybe I should perhaps this would help
them understand other concepts in machine learning more particularly
global optimum/minimum, convergence, and why in the world we use
functions. I only hope I can find time to religiously follow the
classes. :) If not, I always have iTunesU but the materials online are
guhreat! I signed up for an advanced class so there will be
programming classes. Their classes are more algorithmic and
mathematical and I am used to applied ones. I hope I survive! :)

Cheers!

Random Topic

I had a chat with two guys tonight. One is about to get married and
the other one has a girlfriend. I do not know how we got to talking
about how they make their girlfriend feel secure after a severe bout
of jealousy but somehow our nonsense talk veered towards this
direction. They both said the same thing. They try their best to woo
the girl after a moment of doubt. They try to convince the girl that
the girl is the only one for them. While they are convinced that
everybody knows that no amount of assurance will help, they do it
anyway until the girl feels all better.

I thought this was really sweet.

I wish them all the best. Their partners are fortunate. I am thinking,
they are too, for finding a person that they do not tire of assuring
and more importantly loving.

Today, while I was super tired because my day was nonstop from 9am
until 6pm, I am surprisingly at peace. Thank You Lord. :)

Meet Joe Black

I actually got this from a post by one of my students.

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. I say,
fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who
will love you the same way back. How do you find him? Well, you forget
your head, and you listen to your heart. To make the journey and not
fall deeply in love, well, you haven't lived a life at all. But you
have to try, cause if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

Hmm...

I'm not sure. :)

Nooneenoo for the Day

You do not fall in love with a person because he or she is the most beautiful person you know. You fall in love with the person just because. It is something you just accept like a phenomenon or a conundrum. Like gravity and how because of it life on Earth is possible, and how because of it cosmic bodies are going around their respective orbits. How because of it everything is just right.

Love, while very difficult to grasp and explain is a gift. It is there whether you want it or not, whether you believe or not, so might as well trust it and be pulled. You never stood a chance against it anyway.

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Sticks and Stones Break Bones

I hank You for all my positive thoughts dear Lord. Please keep them coming. :)

When bones break and they have to heal you put them in a cast to set them right. The skin gets itchy and of course the cast itself is heavy but in the end, if you wait for the right time, the bones will set and not before long everything is back to normal.

Thank you for the rainbow, the sunrise, the promise of another tomorrow. Thank You for the gift of hope. Thank You for allowing us to heal in Your time. Thank You for always providing a way to set things straight.

Whenever I feel itchy ease me, whenever the cast feels heavy please support me and whenever I tire of waiting, send me a rainbow, a sunrise, a promise of another tomorrow. My hope is in You alone.

Thank You. :)

PS:

Thank You for giving me such a colorful rainbow. :) It is so vibrant, I cannot wait! :)

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Burn Baby Burn

Dear Lord, I thank You for the fuel. The past two days have been amazing. Please keep the fuel burning. I really feel like I just might be ready.

I have to do away with mediocrity and for once just go for gold haha! I cannot, cannot stop. Must not lose momentum. Hopefully, inertia is great enough.

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Testing

Hello!

Just testing something. Ignore. :)

Xiao!

I was able to taste this amalgamation of meat and soup paradise
wrapped in dimsum wrapper in Taipei. I almost missed it so I can go
around the city some more... You know how I can be when in a foreign
place but the Taiwanese professor I was in partnership with urged me
to come with them to a famous restaurant that turned out to be Din Tae
Fung. I was able to try their first ever restaurant. We ordered
different types of dimsum, I will post the pictures here as soon as I
find them in my hard disk. The dimsums I tried are the best ever I
have tried.

In 2010, I was happy to have been able to go to Hong Kong because Din
Tae Fung has a branch there. I was able to try the Silver Cord branch
at Kowloon. The branch did not disappoint. I was so happy because I
was able to allow my family to try the Xiao Long Bao there.

In the Philippines, I have tried some restaurants that serve Xiao Long
Bao. I have decided to write about them here so I will not forget. :)

There is Suzhou in Mabini. The wrapper is too thick for me but other
than that, this is actually alright. The price is 90Php per four
pieces. I love their ginger sauce. The place is not upscale but the
food is great.

I have also tried Shilin and I must say this is the closest to Din Tae
Fung. The price is 250 for every 10 pieces if I am not mistaken. This
is located at the Podium.

Today, yesterday and three days ago (Yes, I have been frequenting
Golden Bay), I was able to try the Xiao Long Pao at Golden Bay in
Macapagal. I was disappointed all three times, the Xiao Long Pao does
not have enough soup inside and it does not have the same flavor.
Their sauce is not as good as the sauce provided by Suzhou too... I
love their Snow Lady though. (An absolute must try!)

I would like to try Crystal Jade restaurant in Greenhills. I have not
tried that place yet. I hope too soon though. :)

Xiao! :)

Paper Writing

The reason why my proposal writing keeps on taking a backseat is
because I write papers. I am so excited about the paper that I am
writing right now. I initially thought the deadline was today but
fortunately deadline is almost a month from now *whew!*! I hope the
paper gets in, not because I am excited to go out of the country again
but because I really, really want this paper to get published. I am
really happy with our findings and I want it to be out there. I want
the paper to be reviewed by the experts. :)

The other paper that I have been praying for to get accepted, got
accepted *woohoo!!!*. This is going to get published by Springer and I
am soh happy!!! This conference will be at Diliman and I will not be
going out of the country for this, and yet, notice how happy I am, I
think I am maturing as a researcher *haha*! This conference was
organized by Osaka University. :)

I will be leaving the country some time this October for Hanoi,
Vietnam for a conference. I have also been praying for the paper to
get into this conference. Thank You Lord for your generosity. :) I
have never been to Vietnam and yes, I am excited! I hope I get to do
some fun stuff while there.

Okay, back to the paper that I was writing! :)

P.S.

Yesterday and the day before have been above average wonderful. Thank
You dear Lord for the surprises that You bring my way. It makes me
giddy. Truly, You have blessed me. Please help me take care of Your
blessings. Sometimes I doubt because it is hard to believe that You
have given somebody as lowly as me so much. I realize that You do this
so that I may be able to channel Your love to others. Thank You for
entrusting me with so much. :)

You make me happy. I smile for You and because of You.

Silver Lining

I have been out of my element lately!

As I left my friend's car tonight, I caught myself tangled with the seatbelt and my jacket! Seriously! I ended up laughing my heart out, out of sheer frustration! *aargh!!!* What is wrong with me?

I am growing constellations of pimples (understatement!) on my chin. I have accidentally overwritten a file that is soh important to me I cannot even begin to describe. For a while, I thought I would keep it to myself, thinking my friends would judge me. The minute I saw my closest friend though, everything just poured out. I almost cried. My friend did not judge me. Instead, he found possible solutions to my problem. I was so relieved. I am glad he was able to see my pain. Not only did he try to provide solutions, he also cheered me up with his magic tricks.

Thank You for sending me people who are really there to help out. While today was such a stressful day, I was not able to hear mass and all, I felt Your presence through the people who were there for me.

Thank You because through them, I feel Your love.

Gift of Present

Another trimester has ended and I have once more given the grades of my students. They have given me the things that they have learned in the Personal Effectiveness subject that I teach.

I am amazed at how much they have put the things I have presented in class to practice. Now, if only I can do that too... *haha* The best perk of being a teacher is to hear the sincere "Thank You" of the students. I really am grateful for being in this profession.

Another perk is being able to join the swim meet! :)

I had my second swim meet today!

I won first place out of two swimmers! :) Not bad *hahaha*! My time is 55 seconds. Still not the 30 seconds I am gunning for but hopefully with practice I will get there. Now, everyone has been heckling me about being a swimming champion this year and last year (where I had nobody to swim against) *haha*! I told them I will get a jacket that says Back-to-Back. They told me they'll get a three-peat shirt for next year *haha*.

It was fun swimming but I was a nervous wreck the night before because I had to be conscious about my sleeping position lest my left shoulder might hurt. I also had this bad case of palpitations because of a caffeinated drink a friend gave me. Being the glutton that I am, I drank the Figaro drink, as a result, I was palpitating until I fell asleep. I was up until three in the morning! Early this morning, I was still having difficulty breathing and my heart rate has not normalized completely but I had to get myself together. I was still able to do two laps before we competed. :)

Since I have been up until three in the morning, I really should be going to bed now.

Good night world!

Thank You Lord for the gift of the present. May I always remember that I should worry not what tomorrow brings because You got my back. :)


P.S.
The homily last Friday was beautiful. In a way, I think it might be an answer to a question that has long been lingering in my neurotic head.

The gospel was about Jesus saying how the highest of commandments are, "Love God above all else. Love others as you love yourself.".

The priest said something that struck me (not verbatim, his version was soh much nicer): "Sometimes we are afraid to love because we are afraid of getting hurt. We think that by not loving, we will not get hurt. This is true, but to love is to live and so to not love is to not reach life's full potential."

I quite agree. To love is to give others the power to hurt us.

Cue in music. *And I'm ready to take a chance again, ready to put my love on the line... * *wahahaha*

Seriously though, my application is to think about this. I am not sure if this is an answer to a question in my head. If it is, I thank You Lord.

Baggage Free

I have finally done what I should have done for a long time. De-clutter. I am not sure why I have kept them for so long *haha!*. I feel so light!

This is considering that I have not been running lately. :)

The One

Everybody can go back on their word. All, save for one. That is Jesus. He will always keep His promise and for that I am grateful. And hopeful.

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Lolo Duh-ed's

Oh yeah, I almost forgot... maybe because I have been trying so hard to forget... *hehe!*

My friends and I tried the Eat-All-You-Can Sirloin, Wagyu, US Ribeye, Prawns, Risotto, Mashed Potato, Rice at Lolo Dad's Brasserie for only 1200 Php+ 10%.

It was a rather disappointing experience. The beef were not consistent in size. I am talking drastic inconsistencies here. Too bad I did not take pictures because I did not bring with me a decent camera. Some were of decent size, some were really like meat scraps.

I was served rare instead of medium well once. My friend was served grilled instead of baked prawns (twice!). When we told the server it was wrong, the waiter wanted my friend to eat it. When my friend refused, the server just left it on the table for us to still eat it... Talk about force feeding. Our orders got switched. The sirloin was not tender. At all. There were wagyus that were decent but most of it was not tender either. Sauce got spilled on the table cloth so the waiter took my friend's table napkin to cover the mess! It took a really long time before food came out. I was served cold steak. If Gordon Ramsay were there, he would just switch off the kitchen.

I had high expectations because I have heard wonderful things about Lolo Dad's along Quirino Avenue. The 6750 Lolo Dad's sucks. We even saw a cockroach on the window. Yes, it was inside the restaurant. Service sucked big time. The only time there were waiters waiting was the time when Tony Boy Cojuangco was inside. the restaurant.

The waiter volunteered the information that the chefs were at a competition. My theory is that since the chefs were at the competition, the waiters had to cook and random strangers waited on tables. This explains the bad food and the bad service.

To conclude, we are not going to go back.

Here Comes The Sun

I am now, yet again, basking in sunshine. I realized that the reason why I was not feeling warm is because I have been hiding far too long underneath the shed. Silly me thought, I was going to get the sun to come in eventually if I stayed hidden long enough. It is good that it has finally dawned on me that the sun is too cosmic, too hot, too significant for a mere mortal like me to will it to come inside my cold hole.

Being happy is a choice.

Recognizing your blessings is a choice.

For a while, I have forgotten this.

Thank You for sending people to remind me that this is the secret to happiness.

Thank You for the acts of thoughtfulness that abound each day.

Eclipse

Efforts are not in vain. I am sorry I focus on mistakes. They almost eclipsed the most beautiful thing. I am such an ingrate. I have to do more reminiscing to see how fortunate I am.

I muwt put this eclipse behind me. Like the eclipse, this does not happen often. I can certainly overlook a moment of darkness for many years of sunshine.

Thank You Lord for the experience, may we really learn from it.

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Victor Hugo

While his works known to me are tragic because he is not one to sugarcoat and pretend happy endings will always happen, there is one page in Les Miserables that made me realize that through all the harsh realities this is what you can revel in:

You are loved in spite and despite of who you are. Loved more tha. you can ever understand and cared for more than you possibly deserve.

I think it is also quie amazing if I can also feel the same towards another:

To love in spite and despite of, more than I can underetand and care for more than the other deserves.

because in the end this is the kind of love that the Lord gives. We were built in His likeness and so we are probably built to love like Him as well.

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Progress Report

We are going to have a meeting tomorrow and I am not very pleased with what I have accomplished in the last few days. I could have done more had I not been so glued to the television which conveniently is just a few inches from me! Aargh!

I need to go to a research retreat and really, really think about things. I just need to prepare all my materials, say for example, a completed RRL. I cannot say I have done well because I am still lacking greatly I think in materials. I have now, a memory of a goldfish so I need to keep on reviewing the papers. This might be a good thing, hopefully, by the time (which SHOULD be next term) I defend, I would know them by heart.

I might not do Hidden Markov Model anymore because most readings say I need a representation that is human readable. I still need a probabilistic approach but definitely it has to have first order predicate logic somewhere. Wow, I make it sound like I understand it *haha!*. I have no friggin' idea yet how to do this but hopefully, I will get there.

My papers are more or less organized (leaning more towards LESS), I still have a tall pile to read but I have to attend the meeting by tomorrow already and I haven't got the time to continue reading some more. My output will just have to do.

I have to go and catch some winks, tomorrow is a full day. I do not like defense week. Nobody does. So why do we have it again?

Answered Call, Answered Prayer

I woke up today a bit later than I wanted to. I woke up at ten in the morning but I was a tad bit sleepy still and then the phone rang. That phone call woke me up faster than a pitcher of ice cold water fresh from the refrigerator. It was a call I have been praying for. That call was an answered prayer.

Please let everything just fall into place. I am tired and forlorn. I am not sure for how long I can still withstand this. I have much that I need to attend to and this is consuming me. Please let everything be normal again.

Through You everything is possible. I raise everything up to You, I know You have me in the Palm of Your Hands.

Thank You.

Suspension

I think the government has to rethink the guidelines for class suspension for the different levels. These guidelines have been there since i was young and our environment has changed greatly since then. A signal number 2 can already cause waist deep floods whereas before this might not have been the case.

The guidelines are there to protect the youth. They have to revisit every now and then especially since we are going through climate change. I thought after Ondoy this should be done without them being told.

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Pollution

I hope I am not as annoying as this person. I really hope I do not sound as irritating because if I do, I should start hating myself. I would wear earphones but I am waiting for my advisees to call for me...

Aargh...


How much longer do I need to listen to this?

Cons

I do not know how many contact lens wearers will be reading this post but no matter how small the number is, I still want to do my part in raising the awareness for GPC or Giant Papillary Conjunctivitis. I am greatly disappointed in optometrists and optical shops for never informing contact lens wearers or prospective contact lens wearers of the risks that they face if they choose to wear contact lenses.

Last Wednesday, my right eye wept for half a day because it was rejecting my right contact lens. I know I am also at fault here for being irresponsible and not going to see an opthalmologist right away. It is ironic that a friend of mine for the longest time IS an opthalmologist *hehe!*. But her clinic is just too far away ... I digress. I thought it would go away because normally it does but this time around, it just would not quit even if I use my Aquify eye drops from Ciba. I had to go home to remove my lenses.

The following day, after much prodding from a close friend, I went to the hospital. I was told that I have GPC. Chronic contact lens wearers suffer from this. Essentially, wearing contact lens regularly makes one an automatic candidate. This condition has ten levels and I was told that I was in the 2nd level.

GPC causes your eyes to dry because this inflames the inner layer of the eyelid making the surface rough. This leads to dry eyes and discomfort. The cornea, which is the transparent layer of the eye gets its nutrients from the air and from the tears coming form the tear ducts. GPC makes your eyes produce less tears, hence, the cornea will dry up and if GPC gets really bad, it can get brittle and easily get scratched. I am fortunate because my cornea has no signs of abrasions.*whew*

The deal with my doctor is this, I cannot wear contacts for a week. After that, I have to reduce my contact lens wear from seven days to only five days a week. My friend told me not to wear contacts all together. My doctor proposed this as well in order to banish the symptoms. However, my doctor understands that this is impossible for me. I cannot give up wearing lenses. I do not want to wear glasses while I run. I do not want to swim blind. I know, I know I can get prescriptive goggles but... okay fine... maybe I will get a pair... *sigh*. So, while my friend insists that I do not wear contacts anymore, I was able to haggle and convince that I can wear contacts whenever I run or I swim. I will try my utmost best to not wear contacts. *haha*

This morning I accidentally wore them because I have programmed myself to be this way.

Oh and yeah, my doctor got me Genteel it's an eye drop product by Novartis. It has to be refrigerated so I am not sure how to go about using it at least four times a day when I need to keep it cool. I bring it with me nonetheless so I can use it.

I hope my eyes get better. I miss my contacts already. :)

SONga (State of Ngayon)

I was visiting memory lane and saw a list of things I wanted to do for 2006 and I realize that I was able to do most of it.


Still read books for leisure
I still do read for leisure. In fact, I think I am less stringent in terms of the books that I read. I am less discriminating. I sill would not read a Harry Potter to save my life but I still find reading as one of the most entertaining things to do.


Remember that my younger sister is no longer a baby
She is now a professional and has a boyfriend. I still have my big sister syndrome but I am proud to say that yes, I have now accepted that she is no longer a baby. :) *wahahah!!!* She can't push me around anymore. :)

Be more organized, organized, organized!
*hehe!* Relatively, yes. I am now more organized. I do use an electronic and a paper planner now. I have recently, (thnk last night) started a new filing system for the papers that I am referencing for my RRL. I have a special folder in my hard disk for all the papers, grouped in specific topics mind you, so that should say enough about how much I have improved. My desk still looks like a hurricane ransacked it but a slightly forgiving hurricane.


Be more punctual!
I am now more punctual in my classes. I have not been late for my class for a while now and I have not forgotten any of my classes during the beginning of the term. :) *beams*

Stick to my thrice a week 20-lap swimming, once a week 30 min jog and thrice a week crunches
I now just swim 10 laps instead of 20. My schedule will only permit me this much and at least once a week... I rarely get to swim more than once actually. I get to run at most thrice a week and at least once a week. It used to be 9KM but then it went down to 5KM and then now to 2.5KM but I have been doing intervals so that should count for something. I do not do crunches but I now do Barre3. My blood pressure if 90/60 for crying out loud! I think I am doing fine. :)


Earn PhD units
Twice more than the required actually. Talk about overkill.

Publish a paper
Check! :)

ERCIM tie up

I do not even remember this *wahaha* but I was able to have a project with ICT-Asia through a French institution and I had as partners universities from Korea, Thailand, Taiwan and Singapore. I am also in partnership with the Psychology department right now and I have an ongoing DOST-PCASTRD project. I guess I did okay.

Make classes informative but exciting and fun
I do my best. I hope I am doing this. I can't believe I used to have this much passion. Enough at least to put this on my list hehe...

Propose an improved Computer Literacy Program as Pagkamulat Coordinator
We were able to improve the materials. Also, before I stepped down I was able to partner with MACE Learning Center and now every year we go there to give gifts to the kids and we also sponsor some kids there so they can go to school. I am still an active member of Pagkamulat and I love it.

Be responsive to calamity victims
We rarely have drives now.

Encourage more faculty involvement in Pagkamulat
This caused me much frustration before. I thnk the new coordinator is doing a much better job. :)

Be a good Practicum coordinator
I am proud to say that I have really improved in this area. I love my job. I love my students. I cannot say more. :)

Complain less :)
This blog is a testament to how much of a miserable failure I am in this department.

Less topaks for my boyfriend to worry about
No comment.

Continue to be an active lector
I stopped for a while but I am now back as a commentator.

Become a better badminton player
I still suck but I think my hand-eye coordination improved. I have learned how to play Ultimate Frisbee, pingpong and I did score one of the highest scores at Laser Extreme when I played with a bunch of my friends. But yeah, I still suck at badminton.

Join a fun run
I joined more than one actually. My last time was 30 minutes for 5K and 1hour for 10K I think. I stopped running because registration fees are just prohibitive. I would rather spend on my gear than on the registration.

Skate again
I did. On the ice and on pavements. I do not skate now, however. I do not know if I will skate again.

Sing more
We still do have our videoke sessions. We have a magic sing which we now rarely use but I still do sing. :)

Read more, learn more
I still read a lot... of papers :) I read and watch educational stuff and I talk to educated and well-read people so yeah, I grab every chance to learn.

I will come up with a new list of things I want to do and keep doing soon. :)

Progress Bar

I got to run again today! I did intervals again which is the most abhorring thing ever invented by runners, I think. It is really draining and it makes me feel like my lungs are going to explode! So why do it at all, you might ask? It gives me the workout I want in less time. Also, I think it will teach me how to sprint. I am more of a stamina runner/swimmer and I want to learn how to sprint to prepare me for an upcoming meet! :) *nervous*

Last night, I was able to see these sites that gave me tips on how to improve my stroke count. This gives a list of things to do and while some of the tips here, contradict with the eleven-time Olympic medalist *whoah!* Natalie Coughlin, I find the tips helpful nonetheless.

Okay enough of that.

I want to be well-rounded. :) I am doing such a good job considering I have been munching on banana chips *soh good!*. I digress. I am working on my dissertation proposal again. I decided to go back to the literature most similar to what I want to do and work my way from there. I know there will be a lot that I need to go through but these are the papers I will start with first.

I won't bore you anymore with details. I just really wanted to report what I am going to finish by tonight. I will not rest until I really finish all these because I have to finish my chapter one by Friday. Fortunately for me, I do not think I have to work tomorrow.

Over and out. :)

Moving Target

I feel like I keep on doing things over in my dissertation but I think
I might have finally, finally found the specific problem I want to
drill in. I will need to do more RRL again. I swear my friend would
pound my head already. We have been working side by side and my friend
has made giant strides while I slept *wahaha*! I have been utterly
lazy because I was lost for a long time. I was trying to solve a load
of problems when I need to just solve one specific problem!!!

Focus!!!

Next term I will defend my proposal and pass.

I will finish this.

Endor-fins

I got to run today yahoo!!!

I was badly in need of endorphins this morning and it was indeed a blessing to have somebody listen to my sob stories. It was a great opprtunity to be able to have time to err... make time to run. It gave me the endorphin boost that I needed.

I guess I will not just workout for physical fitness anymore but mental fitness and emotional fitness as well. Oh and yeah I have to practice swimming...

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Drawing

They say women have this special intuition where you just get a feeling that people are betraying you. Then again, where do you draw the line between intuition and paranoia? A close friend of mine mocked me for even discussing this. He said I am supposed to be a scientist and intuition does not fall under science.

Hmm... I guess. So best to gather evidence, conduct experiments and perform observations before drawing conclusions.

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Swimming Ariel

My sister showed me this video and I have been wanting this doll since! I have always loved the Little Mermaid. I saw the movie when I was nine and I have kept on watching it over and over. I memorized her songs and up to this very day, I still sing her song Part of Your World every time we go to a karaoke place.

I wanted an Ariel doll before but I was a stingy kid and my parents gave me money to spend. I saw one that really looked like Ariel in Bahrain before but I was too stingy to buy it. I think it was 10 Dinars which was roughly 1000Php then and it was early nineties... So no. I did not get the doll.

Fast forward to today... I want the Swimming Ariel!!! :) Can I please, please swim with Ariel the next time I am at the pool.

Oh and yeah, Santa, if you can read my blog, may I also have my mermaid fins?! :)

*Swimming Ariel... Swimming Ariel song from the TV advertisement*

Cool-pon Shopping!

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If you are wondering what I have bought already: *hehe!*

I was able to get buffet coupons at 50% off at Sofitel's Spiral and I was able to get 90% off at a local spa and a nice holiday for only 2,700Php! Cool huh?! If you are looking for gifts they provide nice gifts as well! :)

Life's Oxymorons

I find it truly amazing how people far from each other are closer. I guess it's pretty much like how when your voice is softer people hear you louder. Is it the challenge? Or is it the crave to conquer and to overcome? Is it because humans are designed to break down walls, and defeat limitations?

Whatever force it is that makes people this way, I am grateful.

Because of this force, the Berlin wall went down on November 9, 1989, the world became flat and people continue to strive to break down barriers of distance, space and time.

Thank You.

WAW!

I am now an official emcee under Weddings At Work! *woot!*

I hope I get booked soon! I am trying to figure out what to put on my new website. I am collecting all my pictures from all the weddings I have been an emcee for. I will also be collecting pictures from all the corporate events I have also hosted. I am mighty excited and I hope this really pushes through because it will be fun and it will give me additional income!

*yehey!!!*

Sunshine

I woke very disappointed because I woke up vey late and then like the sun that peeked out after a heavy rain, I received a message and all was bright and sunny again!

Thank You, it really, really made my day! :) I am off to finish tasks! :)

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The Sweetest Thing

Somebody eating your leftover.

Hahaha!!! Am I weird or what?!

Seriously though, I appreciate acts of kindness and cavalry when they are really needed, when they matter because then you know it is not just for putting on a show.

Oh and yeah, for the record I really find eating off of a plate of someone sweet. Be that person be a sibling, a parent, a close friend (otherwise it is creepy and disturbing) or a partner (loved one sounds wrong coz all the others previously mentioned are loved too). It shows a certain level of intimacy and trust.

PS.

I had a cute sweet kid to play with today and it made my day. She remembered my name and our mini adventures! This kid will go rock climbing and swimming with the sharks with me someday. :)

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First Major Quiz

Melancholia hits me.

I am now in a pensive mood after such a nice day.

*sigh*

Days sometimes can feel like weeks and weeks like months and months like years and years like a lifetime and a lifetime like forever and forever like... I think I have established my point.

Waiting has never been my forte but each day I am learning and I feel stronger each day.

Stroke of Bad Stroke

I swam today and had my sister take my video so I know how stroke looks. My camera phone sucks and my stroke too. Aargh!!! Really?! 60?! For a friggin' 50m?! I know it is ridiculous but I have to aim for a 30!!! So hmm... I have my period so no swimming for me next week but I have to do land training. Hopefully period will end by Saturday and that should let me swim. I have to look at videos for swimming. I was unable to maximize my glide because I was moving my arms too fast.

Next week should be better...

I hope my sister can get me on video again. :)

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La-Z Girl

I need to jump start myself. I have been lazing around, not for days mind you but for months. I want to kick myself in the butt. I really must get myself to work. Aargh...

I did not even get to run yesterday! Yes, I have gotten that lazy. I am going to run tomorrow. I must run tomorrow. My sister has warned me how my figure now can change ever so abruptly if I start slacking off again. Needless to say, I am soh very happy with how I look right now! Vanity of vanities!!! :) Better to be happy with how you look than to loathe it, at the end of the day, there is really nothing much you can do with the raw materials you were given with. Harness it and love it or hate it and well be miserable wahaha!!!!

So I am making a deliberate choice to lavett!!!

Thank You Lord for the blessings that just come pouring in. Thank You for the opportunities that You present me with every single day to love You more. More importantly, thank You for the love You send me through the people You have sent my way. Please bless them all.

Nosebleed

I got another nosebleed again this morning. I was not speaking in English and yet... Hmm... Odd.

I also want to learn how to cook. Haha! Something is messing with my system. Must be due to watching too close to the screen at Resort World. Transformers might have screwed with my system.

Still contemplating on running in a while. :)

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Vendetta

Here is another declamation piece from the past...

Disclaimer: This is really not how I remember Vendetta. I remember it as something more tragic but this is the only thing I was able to come across. I just transcribed this from an actual performance. I am at the mercy of the memory of the kid that performed this. I plan to modify this so it is as I remember it but I am too lazy right now *hehe!*. For now, this will have to do! :)





Vendetta

Let's Doogie!

I was still young when Doogie Howser, M.D. came out snd I had an early bedtime. I was not able to see much of the series before so imagone how thrilled I am now that I am watching a rerun on etc! :)

I am beyond thrilled!!!

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JapaNice Food - Part Two

See Part One here.

I failed to mention Nihonbashitei at Pedro Gil. So far, this is the best that I have tried in Manila. They really serve good Japanese food. The ambience is also great because there are rooms that look like restaurants in Japan. The downside is that there are a lot of Japanese people who keep on smoking in the restaurant.

The food price is below 300Php. You must try their Udon, Takoyaki and Gyoza. ;) Their Yakiniku is also very good! *yum!*

Bor-okay

I have been to Boracay at least seven times. I know, I just cannot get enough of that island. :)

So from the seven times that I have been there, here are the tips that I think would let you get the most fun out of your moolah:

1. If you want a really great time with your friends try FlyFish because it is 100 times better than banana boat and not as painful. :) This has got to be the most fun water sport in Boracay that I have ever tried. Try to get as much discount as possible by haggling with the agents. The lowest I got this FlyFish activity for is 470Php.

2. Helmet diving is not that fun in my opinion because it is not so eventful but you ought to do this at least once even if for the cute pictures and video. The lowest I got this for is 450Php but if you are with more people, maybe you can get this as low as 350Php. I have not really tried to get it that low. :) Remember to equalize so you will not hurt yourself.

3. I got a lot of bruises last time I tried to learn how to skim board. I still cannot do it for the love of me but I think if I try it a second time I will be able to do this. I suggest you save this for last so if you get injured at least you are homebound already *hehe!*! My brother hurt his wrist before because of this so... be careful.

4. Wall climbing is relatively cheap at 50Php per climb. There are three walls at D'Mall with different levels of difficulty. I have climbed the easy and intermediate wall. I do not know if I will ever attempt to climb the difficult wall. :)

5. You can also try the basketball challenge at D'Mall. It is only 35Php for 40seconds. This is extremely addictive so bring lots of cash *hehe!*!

6. There are people who tried Zorb but I never really want to try this because I keep on wondering how many people sneezed, puked, coughed and breathed in that Zorb so... *hehe!*!

7. Swimming is really fun too and it is free! Water is cold even in the summer so it is very refreshing. When the wind is strong and there is rain, the water is warm so it's really great! The talcum sand is never hot so no need to wear flipflops while walking on the sand even under the glaring heat of the sun.

8. Building sand castles is very easy if you use Boracay's sand so if you have never made sand castle before, now is the time! : ) My friend decided to build a giant toilet bowl with poop in it. Another friend of mine made a naked woman. : ) It was really fun!

9. Bring your own frisbee so you need not buy at Boracay and play for free all you want! :) This is fun but can also get a bit challenging if the wind is strong.

10. One of the things that I enjoy doing at Boracay is running along the beach! This is free too! I do this very early in the morning so it is not too hot yet.

11. After doing all these activities, you'd want to eat too! I highly recommend Boracay's choriburger! :) This should be just 35php for Chorizzo on a stick and 40Php for Choriburger (in a bun). I like putting spicy sauce and vinegar on my chori! :)

12. A good drink to wash this down is the creamy shake at Jonah's. Try their mango milk shake at 95Php.

13. If you want to splurge you can try the Steakhouse along the beach. Damage is less than 500Php for a nice steak.

14. If you are craving for gourmet food, you can also try Lemon Cafe. Try their Mango (forgot the exact name) cake because this is also divine. Just try not to think about how much butter is in there... ;)

15. Bite Club offers an assortment of burgers and they have good burger too. Club Burger is less than 200Php and is a juicy 1/3 pound burger with one free topping of choice. You can also try the giant Bombarella which is half a pound stuffed with mozzarella cheese! :) Triple X burger is a one pounder! :)

16. There is a BBQ place near Bite Club that offers a good rib eye steak too at less than 300 Php so you can also try that. :)

17. If you are craving for Mexican food, Ole has interesting Mexican and Spanish food. *yummy*

18. If you are under a tight budget you must try the Lucban longganisa of Andok's. Really good!!! :)

For accommodations, if you want a nice play at a cheap price, I advise you book via Agoda.com. I always get good deals from this site. Last Saturday, we had to transfer to another hotel and hotels were so expensive so I booked via Agoda and got a big room for two people for only 58USD. An extra bed was only 800Php and this came with breakfast. I am talking about a Boracay Regency managed hotel so it was not shabby at all. :)

If you are on a tighter budget, you can get a hotel room for as low as 500Php and I am talking about a hotel room near the beach front. All you have to do is to ask around.

Of course when night falls, you can parteh at Station 1's Club Paraw or Gilly's or hang out at bars there or Station 2's Epic. I never liked hanging around Station 3. That place scares me at night. I do not like hanging around places with foreigners. Call me judgmental but I would rather stay out of the way.

If you want to visit the other beaches of the island, all you have to do is to take a tricycle and tell the driver. A ride costs 10Php per person.

If you have other questions at Boracay just leave a message and I will try to answer as best as I can. :)

Em-Sea

Boracay was guhreat! I was the master of ceremonies for the conference and it was a nightmare the night before because the program was not finalized until the morning of the conference I think. Everything was just coming to me on the fly and I had to think on my toes the entire day. I was really stressed but things turned out really well. Added to the pressure were the two big enchiladas of Cisco who attended and gave their talks! *whew*

I do not mind being an emcee in fact I enjoy most parts of it but I just hope people would realize that it is not as easy as it looks. It is my face that gets humiliated if I do not get details right. Fortunately, things went well but maybe I will say no next year. Maybe. *haha!!!*

I intended to write more about my trip to Bora but I have a meeting in a while and I have not even taken a bath yet. *aargh!!!* I have been awake for hours but I was reading a bunch of papers so there... Plus, there was this really interesting episode about rings of planets on the History channel's The Universe.

Gravity. I think it's sexy. Okay... I must get moving because I am talking crazy already *haha!!!*.

Smiling

It is true what they say. All you got to do is ask.

I am going to bed with a big smile on my face.

Good night world!

Thank You. :)

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Chicken All You Can

Am I being oversensitive these days or is there really something wrong? I cannot quite pinpoint what it is. I find myself reluctant to confront because I am not sure what is really there but there is something troubling me. I wonder if I should rock the boat or if I should sit still and wait until everything passes. Will it go away? Is it even there in the first place or is my mind playing tricks again?
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Oh and yeah, I did the chicken all you can at Max's and was able to eat an entire chicken *burp*. I do not want to eat chicken for now. I have had more than my fill.

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Grateful

It is now eleven in the morning and I am still in bed. I will run in a while because I ate a Krispy Kreme donut yesterday and then I ate a Santa Fe burger. Aaargh!!!

Boracay is only a few days away so I must really run!

Today we celebrate the 100 years of DLSU. Yesterday i was contemplating if I should go and see the relic. A friend of mine mademme realize that I shouldngo even if it is just to realize that St. John Baptist de la Salle was human once.

I constantly ask him to pray for me. I was just uneasy gping to see the relic because that is onlh his dead body. Rhe bible did warn about idolatry so I was hesitant to go.

I am glad that I went to see him. It was a very good experience.

Now I must prepare for my run. I think I am well enough to run today.

Thank You Lord.

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iColor

I have been sporting colored contact lenses for the past few days and I have been getting compliments. I like how it looks from afar but I do not like how it looks up close hehe! I am stuck with them because I dropped several cpear lenses by accident and now I am out. I am still on the lookout for their promo because they used to have a promo Buy 2 boxes and get 1 free.

In the meantime, I am making do with this new eye color. I hope I am not freaking out my students. :)

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Surprises

I like it how some people are not after recognition. I am inspired by those who do things in anonymity. The shadows just make people more attractive to me haha! I wonder why I have never been attracted to Batman.

Gestures that are not done for others to marvel at, are simply sweeter, more personal. It does not feel like a production number but rather a sign of affection so genuine it yearns not the approval of others. In the long run, these are the acts that will leave a mark.

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Hey Big Spender

This is just the coolest thing ever! Posting has never been this
easy!!! *woohoo!* Now I am seriously lusting after that new iTouch but
I will wait. Maybe they will release something better... or I will
wait for prices to go down. Haven't really actively looked yet... I
can give my old one to my mom... Haha!!!

I spent a fortune while I was in New York! I cannot, cannot, I repeat
to myself and perhaps must do so in the next ten million years that I
cannot make a purchase again! *thwaps shopaholic self*

Don't think I walked the city streets with tons of bags... Okay
perhaps on some occasions I did but hmm... I also bought a really
small, paper bag that was Tiffany blue. To make matters worse... or
better depending on how you want to look at it, I think I am over my
silver craze. I wanted something gold. Something that really
appreciates in value over time. And then I figured, what could be
better than gold? Yup, diamonds! So to make this rather long
confession short... I got myself a diamond necklace! It still makes me
smile whenever it smiles at me as I open its really nice velvet box
encased inside the Tiffany blue carton box that is encased in its
paper bag *haha*! I have only worn the necklace three times. I am not
sure when my next Tiffany is going to come but I hope not very soon...

While in the US, I also came across a pair of Miu Miu's. Miu Miu is
Miuccia's nickname. Miuccia is the first name of Prada the designer.
The Miu Miu's were on sale like 90% off so I got them! : ) There was
just one pair and I thought to myself, if it will fit then we are
meant for each other. *sigh* And then... there was a pair of Cole Haan
Nike Air... and they were priced as much as Hush Puppies so I just had
to get them too...

Of course I got my share of H&M stuff, Aeropostale and Gap. I smuggled
fresh cherries! Lots and lots and only paid 7 USD for them. I am
charming like that. :) I did not even bring lots of chocolates
anymore... Hmm... I got gifts for people and more souvenirs from
different places so yeah, I am kinda broke *wahaha*! Broke but a
really, really happy gurl!

Oh and yeah, I also got a Kate Spade tote. It's a tote I have been
wanting for a while now and it was on sale. I tried not to buy it and
argue with my id but my friend just nudged me to buy and I was weak.
In hindsight, I am uber glad that I got it. *happiness* So now in my
collection I have a Coach, Kate Spade, Fendi, Burberry, Gucci and
Louis Vuitton. When oh when will I get a Chanel? :) *thwaps self*

The best splurge I think is the 130 USD ticket for Wicked. It was
worth every penny! *sigh* I really enjoyed watching it. I knew the
songs by heart but I was still moved. *sigh*

I will write a better story about my stay in NY and DC next time...
This is a bit out of whack *haha!*. I am taking a break from my
dissertation. My eyesight is blurring and my head hurts... I am just
resting. :)

Test

This is a test if the email function works. If it does, I will be soh
very happy and might actually get the new iTouch already. Not! :)

Love-oh Labo

They say love is needed for a relationship to last. I find love to be too big a word for to understand. What I do understand is respect. When this is not there am pretty sure there is no love. I know this is still not the definition of love but this is a start. Gimme a break, some people take a long time to learn some things!

Panda-ring

I have a splitting headache argh... I hope it goes away soon. I have not had this much headache for the longest time. So long in fact, I do not know how to remedy it but to take Biogesic. I was watching Samantha Brown and now I want to Szechuan in China so I can hold a panda. I hope I can find a conference there. :) I was in China once but it was in Beijing. I was happy then too because I was able to go to the Nest and Cube from the Olympics. Going there, I had tontake a crazy flight that was turbulent all the way. Still, I want to go to China!!!

Panda-ring

I have a splitting headache argh... I hope it goes away soon. I have not had this much headache for the longest time. So long in fact, I do not know how to remedy it but to take Biogesic. I was watching Samantha Brown and now I want to Szechuan in China so I can hold a panda. I hope I can find a conference there. :) I was in China once but it was in Beijing. I was happy then too because I was able to go to the Nest and Cube from the Olympics. Going there, I had tontake a crazy flight that was turbulent all the way. Still, I want to go to China!!!

Bor-again

I know, I know I have not talked about my US trip yet but I have been busy... okay lazy. These days I like to get to bed early. Save for yesterday because it was hard to sleep when I have slept the entire day. I got sick. I am still sick but more able than yesterday to dance and prance about. I am excited to go to Bora again yahoo!!! Bora twice a year is becoming a habit haha!!! I hope it will be the same next year. We will be extending our stay so after the conference we can still get to have tons of fun!!!

Testing, Testing

I really like that there is a new app that allows me to post via mh iTouch. Yahoo!!! I have not posted anything about my travels and recent adventures but I seriously do not feel like doing it right no haha!!! :) I am now lusting right for the new iTouch but I must stop myself because I have made super purchases in New York. *yikes!!!*

Hopeful and Happy

Hope is knowing that when you leave, you have a place to come home to.

Happiness is being reunited after not seeing each other for a long time.

Today, I am hopeful and happy at the same time and because I can be both, I am grateful.

Thank You.

Pool of Surprises

I am sleeping in a bit as soon as I share my uncanny experience today at the swimming pool.

Oh yeah, have not told you that.

I have gone back. The prodigal swimmer is back. I am not back to my 3.6KM swim. Right now I am just doing 1KM, 500m Freestyle, 500m Breaststroke. I still hate breaststroke but I want to even out my muscles hehe... I clocked the time it takes me to change into my suit, swim 1KM, bathe and dress and step out of the locker room and it takes 1 hour. I guess I can spare that much time to swim given that it does make me feel guhreat! :)

I digress.

I was wearing my goggles and swimming cap and most of the time my head was buried underwater because I was swimming... At the end of the pool I tumble turned to swim back to the other end. In spite this, my student still recognized me. My students from way back 2009!!! The only girl in the group went into the locker room to see if it was me. When she found out that it was me, she called her guy friends and two boys went into the locker room to say hi!!! I had to scold them. Thankfully there was no one changing into their clothes in the locker room.

These kids are nice kids, not perverts mind you. They were the same sweet kids whose class gave me a cake and a harana during our last meeting.

It was just creepy that they recognized me in spite all that I was wearing and they followed me to the locker room! :)

So that's how it feels like to be followed. :)

Chuckles...

I am officially a freak. I just cried over a Chuck episode *haha*!

Chuck is such a charming character. *sigh* And he's soh smart too! I do not know what it is but I really find smart uber sexy. :) I think I would fall for a nerd any day. It would be such a great bonus if he had the body of Thor and the face of hmm... Thor. ;)

Okay... Going back to Chuck! :) *giggles*

Friday Gate-a-Way

I forgot to mention about other things that happened last Friday because I was still being Thor-ribly distracted about the Thor-rific body of Thor.

I was able to try a really nice restaurant called Bellini's near Gateway. It's located at the Marikina Shoe Expo and while the location may mislead you into thinking that the interiors is not nice, it was actually uber nice. There were murals 2D and 3D. If you take pictures they look like they're real actually. It makes you look like you really went Roma, Firenze, Venetia, Pisa, Milan... *sigh*. The food and the live music were also great. I enjoyed my Penne al Arabiata very much! I would like to go back to that place but the commute is a bit prohibitive. I would love to bring my mom and my siblings to that place because they are such big fans of Italian food. It is owned by a Filipino and Italian couple and I do not think they have plans of franchising or opening branches... Oh well... At least I got to bring them to Cosa Nostra which is a lovely, lovely place with lovely food. :)

You know, come to think of it, last Friday was a really great day. :) I even had a hot fudge sundae which was especially sweet.

I have a sweet tooth and it does not stop there.

Thor-iffic

I got to see Thor last Friday at Gateway and I loved what I saw hehe... That Thor is really something *giggles like a school girl*! I have been this way since Friday and I just can't help it! I am drawn to guys who look loke they do not take baths.

I loved Brad Pitt in Legends of the Fall and Troy, Heath Ledger in Ten Things I Hate About You, Tom Cruise in Night and Day, Hugh Jackman in Wolverine and Australia, Gerald Butler in any movie *wahaha* (he looks rugged no matter what) and Chris Hemsworth in Thor.

Even when I was younger I have always been drawn to this type: Rurouni Kenshin, Squall, Kurama... Robin Padilla hehehe...

So yeah... current apple of my eyes is Chris. :)

On a more serious note though I would like to say, the LaZ Boy seats were great but the sound system sucked, Gateway. I hope you fix that because it totally ruins the experience.

Bringing Sexy Back

I find a person who would use his brains to win an argument way sexier than a person who would use his muscles.

I just realized this about myself today.

So that's why Bonifacio never really caught my eye, Rizal has though *hehe*.

Ex-tension

The deadline was moved by one more week!!! *woot!!!* But I will go surfing this weekend so I must finish by Thursday at the latest. Stop rolling your eyes!!! :)

I want to collapse right now actually but I want to have dinner first and then fall asleep while watching Friends. I am watching the series from the very first season. I am now about to finish the second. :)

This will be all for now. I just really wanted to share the guhreat news! :)

Venti Venting

I ought to sleep already as it is almost three in the morning but I need to do this to calm my nerves. I need to exercise! I have not run in ages! Agh! I just find my self lacking in sleep every night so I could not deprive myself of the sleep late in the morning. I have noticed vast improvement on my skin and vast... well vastness around the hips *wahaha!*. So I need to run! But not tomorrow err... today because as you can see, I am going to be sleep-deprived yet again tomorrow.

I had to write a paper tonight and while I think I was able to write the major parts, I will need to review it by tomorrow so that I can improve it. In the meantime, this will have to do. The paper I submitted to a conference in the States was accepted *woot!*! Thank You Lord! :) *happy dance!* At least, I will not just attend a conference but I will get to present as well. Hopefully, I can get comments while I am there. The paper has much to do with my dissertation.

The paper I am writing right now is related to my dissertation but not as relevant as the one I just submitted. The deadline of said paper is tomorrow night *wahahah*! I know, I should be reprimanded. I was thinking if I do not make it to this conference, I will submit to another... So maybe I will submit another paper to another conference, the more papers, the more chances of getting published.

The only exercise I got the last few weeks were, wall climbing, laser tag and arcade basketball! :) I got to climb more challenging walls this time and at 44 feet at that! I want to go back very soon! I also went to play Laser Tag with my friends! I have very poor hand-eye coordination but apparently, I have improved in vast proportions! I placed third out of 24 players! Some of the people I was with were very competitive too! I was soh pleased with myself when I saw the rankings! :) I got the printout to prove it too! :) I hope to be back. I am actually thinking if we can make it into an outreach program for our social action group! :) Another proof that I have that says I have better hand-eye coordination is how much I have improved at playing arcade basketball. I scored 104! Okay, my guy friend scored 128 but he used to be soh much better than me or actually, I used to suck more compared to him! :) I think he may be a good coach that's why!

I will be going surfing this weekend and got myself a brand new rash guard and board shorts! I am soh excited! I really hope I will learn!!! I must! I must! I invested so much already. In my defense, I bought these things because I really plan to go wake boarding very soon! This outfit will be a staple in those wake boarding trips! *woot!*

I think I might go to Barre3 sometime during this week because I need the workout... Or maybe not. I just really need to work out! Agh...

Actually, what I really need right now, now is... SLEEP!!!

Blooming

I have just concluded two of my classes this trimester. Once more, tears welled up in my eyes. Fortunately, my eyes are big enough to swallow the tears again *haha!*. Every trimester, my students just really make me so grateful that I teach. I love their messages to me after the trimester ends. Even after they get their grades ( I compute their grades already during the last meeting).

Thank You Lord for leading me to this place. For planting me where I can bloom in so many ways.

Thank You for this gift.

I want to volunteer at a nearby orphanage. I hope to do this, this Saturday. Maybe I should go there tomorrow to inquire. :)

Exciting!!!

Sand Castle

A week ago, I was able to build my first, very own sand castle! I was not able to immortalize my sand castle because I was too lazy to get the camera from the room but I really think it looks better in my head now. I loved how my Arabian Nights inspired castle looked against the dusk with the tranquil sea in the background.

I built a moat around my castle (I know Arabian castles do not have moats but leave me be... build your own castle!) and as the tide rose, water started filling in the moats. This was partly assisted much to my dismay. I watched how slowly the sand castle was eaten up by the waves, gracefully melting and rejoining the bigger magnificence of the beautiful creation that is the sea.

Like my sand castle, I wish to be beautiful as well, amidst the dusk and the tranquility of the ocean as I age. I want the waves to slowly lick me and then swallow me as I gracefully melt into oblivion. I would like to fade only because fading will make way for unrivaled art.

Who would have thought that a simple act of scooping dirt and shaping it into something could create so much meaning into something I have feared for so long?

Thank you for allowing me to experience getting my hands dirty so I could build something that I did not know I could. It was such an imperfect castle but it will always be, in my mind, perfect, as the moment when it was crafted.

Until the next sand castle.

Vacay!

My head is already reeling because I need to sleep but I want to write down my thoughts before I finally give in to exhaustion.

I think I can honestly say, that I have had one of the most enjoyable vacations ever.

I finally got to try FlyFish which is soh fun! I want to try that again next time I am in Bora! :) Might go again this June for work. I hope we can squeeze it in.

Thank You for the busy and yet restful vacation that You have given me. You have given my mind, my soul and my heart rest.

Thank You.

The birthday gifts just keep on coming. :)

A Birthday Gift

This year, I got to have two cakes. One cake was from Osaka that was topped with strawberries and the other cake was from the Philippines topped with mangoes. But apart from these cakes topped with strawberries and mangoes, I got my cherry on top. Yes this is on top of all those yummy toppings! :)

I think this year, I got a gift that I did not imagine to get. The giver probably does not understand how it meant a lot to me but it did. It came least expected and it made my heart want to jump out of its cage, but in retrospect, I am just glad that it all happened.

I did not think it would ever be possible and that it would happen as it did but it did! :) Until now, as I recall all that transpired, I feel like everything was surreal. Of course, being the masochist that I am, I imagine myself saying something else or doing something else because I like to torture myself that way but I think all went relatively well. In the end, I just have to let go because none of what has been can ever be changed (and I am not just talking about this particular thing but other parts of my life as well). I have to learn to forgive myself and trust His hand. He has a greater design, a greater plan and all I have to do is to trust His heart.

So, thank you and most importantly, thank You.

On Japan

The day the horrible quake hit Tokyo was the same day I went home from Osaka. It was also my birthday. People were calling me up to check on me. Family members, colleagues and friends were calling me up, asking me if I made it back.

I did and I feel blessed. Thank You Lord for keeping me safe and for helping me make it to my flight (This is another post in itself).

When I heard that there was an earthquake in Japan, I thought to myself, "There is no way Japan will be affected. They are very prepared.". Even after they said a tsunami hit Japan, I was still very confident that Japan was able to warn everybody". My faith in the Japanese people is that great.

Unfortunately, the tsunami and the quake were too horrendous even for the most prepared. Still, as I watch them as a people, I cannot help but be amazed at how dignified they still look in spite the tragedy that hit them. How their government has responded and how they are now picking up all the pieces. Some of my friends from Tokyo were telling me how business, day after the tragedy, was going back to normal.

Even now, that there has been explosions in the nuclear plant, I still think that even that they will be able to contain soon. This is how much I look up to this nation, this group of people, more so because I have seen how they work like clockwork and how much pride they have as they do what is expected of them.

They have, over the years of their existence, triumphed over tragedies. I think this is one of those and one of these days Japan shall rise again to inspire and to awe.

Let us pray for Japan and for the rest of the world.

God bless Japan and the rest of the world.

Peachy and Clammy

Things have been peachy the past few weeks. I cannot say I was productive but all in all things have been going well in other aspects of my life. I hope to be able to make up for my lack of productivity the past few weeks this week. My week started off unproductive but today was an improvement. Vast if I may say so.

My visit to Japan is causing me anxiety. I have to really make a good presentation. *yikes* What troubles me is that I have to be in Naga for a week and then after one day of being back in Manila I will be leaving for Japan. I will practically be not in Manila for two weeks!

We have been anticipating March to be a busy month so I guess this is okay.... *inhale, exhale* Worried about my presentation so I better get crackin'.

Lost at Sea

I should really be sleeping right now but I cannot get something out of my head and out of my chest.

I have recently survived a shipwreck. After finding my way back to land after being lost at sea, I still feel all the pain. Not unscathed mind you. I have scars that remind me everyday of my reckless ways and a few bones still waiting to be set in place and heal fully that makes me feel the pain of stubbornness everyday. There are many days when I wish to run and play and just be as carefree as I used to be but cannot, as my injuries keep me shackled to where I am still day in and day out. What I went through and still going through are things I would not wish on my worst enemy.

I now see myself in somebody whom I feel might suffer the same misfortune and I cannot shout because my warning might fall on deaf ears or worse, it might fall on the wrong ears. Then again, I might just come off as a bitter voyager, envious of the adventure others might enjoy. As I stare at my scars and as I writhe in pain from some still broken bones, it hurts me and my chest is heavy ,knowing that I am helplessly watching somebody sail off to the open sea with the possibility of experiencing the most turbulent journey that will never be completed.

Then again, it could just be my trauma that I am inflicting on my imagination saying all these things. Perhaps these are nothing but delusions of a loon.

Right now, the ship is ready to sail. The champagne bottle is waiting to be smashed on the vessel.

I hope I am wrong.

Bon voyage!

Great

I am going to New York!!! :)

This is hands down my most favorite place in the US! If that is not enough I will get to spend it with a New Yorker friend! This almost feels like Sex and the City except of course there will be no sex *haha!*! She already asked me to bring with me a cute outfit because we are going to parteh! Hmm... what outfit to buhreeng?! :) I am stoked! Can you tell?!

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The recent episode of HIMYM was pretty intense. :) That is all I want to say about this. :)

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I was able to run today but I woke up late and had a morning meeting so I had to cut my run short. I got to do the Barre3 push ups still though and I was able to do dumbbells tonight but I have had four, FOUR sylvannas since my friend got back. I want to shoot myself *haha!* but it is just soh yummy! :)

I will try to not eat too much anymore because it will make me fat. That thing is made of buttah that will make my butt beeg! Which is totally uncool especially since I am going to Boracay! I tried on my swimsuit this morning and I think I should definitely run seriously again *haha!*. Still, being the vain person that I am is saying, not bad gurl! *wahaha!!!* Talk about fighting spirit! But you know, when it is all that you have, you just have to have that thing called... self-affirmation, no matter how deceitful you are to yourself. Works evuhreetime! :)

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Last night, I was fortunate enough to hear the healing mass of Fr. Joey Faller. We were blessed because he and two other priests came. He had a healing session after the mass. I was healed. Not by Fr. Faller but by the Lord, by Jesus and by the Holy Spirit. I felt a transformation take place.

I am glad I came because earlier that week I was thinking of going to my Tai Chi class instead. Yesterday, I realized that this does not happen very often and so I decided to take a rain check on my Tai Chi class and heard mass instead. I was blessed more than all the Tai Chi can give me. I was given peace more than what many years of Tai Chi practice can probably give me.

The Lord has plans for me. He will not falter. He makes great things out of imperfect things.

God is good, all the time.

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Tonight was fun too. I finally tried Punyeta buffalo wings at Charlie's. Two guys and myself tried it because one of us dared the others. No, it was not me. Two pieces each. Both were all sweaty and red. I got through without taking a sip of water, not breaking a sweat and smiling all the way through the pictures. We all had a glimpse of what it is like to be Adam on Man vs Food. His job looks fun but it is not easy. :)

Great company, great food.

Travels So Far

I have been receiving news on my travels for the year and I am thuhreelled!!! This March I will be going to Naga. I am wishfully hoping and thinking if maybe I could get to go to Donsol so that I can swim with the sharks. I am unsure how far Naga is from Donsol and how in the world I can go there. I might actually be happy with Cam Sur but I do not know if that is also feasible. I will just have to wing it. I will be there for a conference of course and getting to have fun is just cherry on top. :)

I will be going to Boracay again this year but I do not know when exactly it will be yet. I am also planning to go to Bora with friends but no date for that one yet either. I would love to go to El Nido even if I have to do it on my own. I just found out that there is a direct flight from Manila to El Nido. Going on my own might be interesting too. Well, there is nothing new to this really because I normally travel alone but going there alone on my own dime will be new.

I will be going to Osaka again this year but this time on business. I will be going to the laboratory we are in partnership with to consult with our Japanese advisers *yikes!*. I am really scared! I get clammy hands whenever I think about it. Last Saturday, my tummy ached like it never has before. I think I am becoming acidic. My friends said it is probably "stress ulcer". Fortunately, it has not recurred so that is good.

I will be going to Washington D.C. as well. I just found out yesterday. I am happy because then I will get to use my visa already and not on my own dime too. More than that, I will be able to attend a conference on my field. Hopefully, I will get to meet people working on my area and also get some insights. I am also hoping against all hopes that I will get to present my work because that can do wonders for my confidence. I would also like to catch Wicked. I hope. I hope. I hope. :)

I have been wanting to see Wicked for a long time now. :)

A Few Good Men

I have the deepest respect for men who know that no material wealth will ever make-up for character and genius. Those who live and buy within their means and aspire for more not so they can buy more but to build a bright future. They understand that there is no need for overcompensation and that a deep-seated respect is more than enough to make a simple shirt, a pair of slacks, worn out but clean shoes are enough to make them shine. They underatand that the honorable way is the only way to make money.

They will never compromise their integrity and values for any price as their desires in life go beyond those that can ever be bought from the store nor do these desires can ever be cheapened by a price tag.

These men are the fathers I hope for the future Filipinos.

Obsessions, Frustrations, Inspirations

I was so caught up with my newly-cut, temporarily straight-for-a-day hair that I forgot to mention how wonderful my Sunday went. It started out with a morning run, a nice, simple breakfast followed by a hefty, uber unhealthy lunch topped with yummy dessert, unplanned grocery trip, amazing company and bountiful laughter, raves and rants. I do not think I will tire of these things.

I opened my email today. I did not like what I saw. I have been praying for this but I did not get it. I wanted it to get comments on my work. But the thing is, I got the comments on my work. Nice comments actually, just not in the way that I wanted. I will try again though. There's bound to be another chance. *hopeful* My adviser is very encouraging and very supportive. I get most of my inspiration from her. We are blessed to have her in the laboratory. Really. :) Thank You Lord for her.

I have finally figured out the algorithm I have been trying to understand for days now. I found the dissertation where it came from and the dissertation explained it so well. Other papers were unable to explain properly.

I think I may have an algorithm already. It is not quite perfect yet but at least I am getting there. My RRL is not done yet and I have received a new paper that I have to look into. I hope to finish by next week. :) *crosses fingers*

I also want to try Bikram Yoga. I am obsessing... Really. I want to try yoga in a 38C temperature and sweat buckets! I have tried doing Tai Chi twice already in the past two weeks. I cannot say I thoroughly enjoy it but I think it is helping me be more patient. I will give it a try again next week. As for the Bikram obsession. I am really hoping I can squeeze it into my schedule. I was unable to run all week. Darn. I hope to run tomorrow. I have not been getting the right amount of sleep, perhaps yoga will help me sleep.

I hope to get myself into shape because I am going to be an emcee, a reader and a prayer leader for the wedding of the century! No, not the royal wedding but quite close! *haha!*

Straight or Gay

I am writing this post via iTouch so it is bound to be garnished with typos.

I had a hair cut today. I loved how they straightened my hair. I really looked nice. I was admiring myself all day like the real vain person that I am. *hahahha* Soh many people paid me compliments! Students, staff, faculty members, guards name it!!! I enjoyed the attention and this made me want straight hair even more. I considered this actually but they said I could not swim in the pool or in the beach. Right then and there I knew The decision was a no-brainer. I choose swimmng over vanity any day. Well... After everyone thought I looked purrty in my straight hair I began to question myself haha!!! And then my friend told me about the aquathlon at Ateneo! I am soh joining that!!! :) *prances about* Forget the straight, shiny beautiful hair! And then more people oohed and aahed and I was confused again haha!!!

But. Today I realized there are people who love me just the way I am. :) While I am now questioning their judgement * hehe*, I am extremely honored to have people like them in my life because their love transcends my imperfections. They love me inspite and despite of who I am. In weird cases even FOR my imperfections. Weird I know but I guess this is a miracle that the Lord gives me everyday.

This is on top of the kind of love He gives me, no ifs, no buts, just plain unadulterated love.

Thank You Lord for blessing me with so much even though I am ungrateful for most parts.

Straight or Gay

I am writing this post via iTouch so it is bound to be garnished with typos.

I had a hair cut today. I loved how they straightened my hair. I really looked nice. I was admiring myself all day like the real vain person that I am. *hahahha* Soh many people paid me compliments! Students, staff, faculty members, guards name it!!! I enjoyed the attention and this made me want straight hair even more. I considered this actually but they said I could not swim in the pool or in the beach. Right then and there I knew The decision was a no-brainer. I choose swimmng over vanity any day. Well... After everyone thought I looked purrty in my straight hair I began to question myself haha!!! And then my friend told me about the aquathlon at Ateneo! I am soh joining that!!! :) *prances about* Forget the straight, shiny beautiful hair! And then more people oohed and aahed and I was confused again haha!!!

But. Today I realized there are people who love me just the way I am. :) While I am now questioning their judgement * hehe*, I am extremely honored to have people like them in my life because their love transcends my imperfections. They love me inspite and despite of who I am. In weird cases even FOR my imperfections. Weird I know but I guess this is a miracle that the Lord gives me everyday.

This is on top of the kind of love He gives me, no ifs, no buts, just plain unadulterated love.

Thank You Lord for blessing me with so much even though I am ungrateful for most parts.