Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Peachy and Clammy

Things have been peachy the past few weeks. I cannot say I was productive but all in all things have been going well in other aspects of my life. I hope to be able to make up for my lack of productivity the past few weeks this week. My week started off unproductive but today was an improvement. Vast if I may say so.

My visit to Japan is causing me anxiety. I have to really make a good presentation. *yikes* What troubles me is that I have to be in Naga for a week and then after one day of being back in Manila I will be leaving for Japan. I will practically be not in Manila for two weeks!

We have been anticipating March to be a busy month so I guess this is okay.... *inhale, exhale* Worried about my presentation so I better get crackin'.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Lost at Sea

I should really be sleeping right now but I cannot get something out of my head and out of my chest.

I have recently survived a shipwreck. After finding my way back to land after being lost at sea, I still feel all the pain. Not unscathed mind you. I have scars that remind me everyday of my reckless ways and a few bones still waiting to be set in place and heal fully that makes me feel the pain of stubbornness everyday. There are many days when I wish to run and play and just be as carefree as I used to be but cannot, as my injuries keep me shackled to where I am still day in and day out. What I went through and still going through are things I would not wish on my worst enemy.

I now see myself in somebody whom I feel might suffer the same misfortune and I cannot shout because my warning might fall on deaf ears or worse, it might fall on the wrong ears. Then again, I might just come off as a bitter voyager, envious of the adventure others might enjoy. As I stare at my scars and as I writhe in pain from some still broken bones, it hurts me and my chest is heavy ,knowing that I am helplessly watching somebody sail off to the open sea with the possibility of experiencing the most turbulent journey that will never be completed.

Then again, it could just be my trauma that I am inflicting on my imagination saying all these things. Perhaps these are nothing but delusions of a loon.

Right now, the ship is ready to sail. The champagne bottle is waiting to be smashed on the vessel.

I hope I am wrong.

Bon voyage!

Saturday, February 12, 2011


I am going to New York!!! :)

This is hands down my most favorite place in the US! If that is not enough I will get to spend it with a New Yorker friend! This almost feels like Sex and the City except of course there will be no sex *haha!*! She already asked me to bring with me a cute outfit because we are going to parteh! Hmm... what outfit to buhreeng?! :) I am stoked! Can you tell?!


The recent episode of HIMYM was pretty intense. :) That is all I want to say about this. :)


I was able to run today but I woke up late and had a morning meeting so I had to cut my run short. I got to do the Barre3 push ups still though and I was able to do dumbbells tonight but I have had four, FOUR sylvannas since my friend got back. I want to shoot myself *haha!* but it is just soh yummy! :)

I will try to not eat too much anymore because it will make me fat. That thing is made of buttah that will make my butt beeg! Which is totally uncool especially since I am going to Boracay! I tried on my swimsuit this morning and I think I should definitely run seriously again *haha!*. Still, being the vain person that I am is saying, not bad gurl! *wahaha!!!* Talk about fighting spirit! But you know, when it is all that you have, you just have to have that thing called... self-affirmation, no matter how deceitful you are to yourself. Works evuhreetime! :)


Last night, I was fortunate enough to hear the healing mass of Fr. Joey Faller. We were blessed because he and two other priests came. He had a healing session after the mass. I was healed. Not by Fr. Faller but by the Lord, by Jesus and by the Holy Spirit. I felt a transformation take place.

I am glad I came because earlier that week I was thinking of going to my Tai Chi class instead. Yesterday, I realized that this does not happen very often and so I decided to take a rain check on my Tai Chi class and heard mass instead. I was blessed more than all the Tai Chi can give me. I was given peace more than what many years of Tai Chi practice can probably give me.

The Lord has plans for me. He will not falter. He makes great things out of imperfect things.

God is good, all the time.


Tonight was fun too. I finally tried Punyeta buffalo wings at Charlie's. Two guys and myself tried it because one of us dared the others. No, it was not me. Two pieces each. Both were all sweaty and red. I got through without taking a sip of water, not breaking a sweat and smiling all the way through the pictures. We all had a glimpse of what it is like to be Adam on Man vs Food. His job looks fun but it is not easy. :)

Great company, great food.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Travels So Far

I have been receiving news on my travels for the year and I am thuhreelled!!! This March I will be going to Naga. I am wishfully hoping and thinking if maybe I could get to go to Donsol so that I can swim with the sharks. I am unsure how far Naga is from Donsol and how in the world I can go there. I might actually be happy with Cam Sur but I do not know if that is also feasible. I will just have to wing it. I will be there for a conference of course and getting to have fun is just cherry on top. :)

I will be going to Boracay again this year but I do not know when exactly it will be yet. I am also planning to go to Bora with friends but no date for that one yet either. I would love to go to El Nido even if I have to do it on my own. I just found out that there is a direct flight from Manila to El Nido. Going on my own might be interesting too. Well, there is nothing new to this really because I normally travel alone but going there alone on my own dime will be new.

I will be going to Osaka again this year but this time on business. I will be going to the laboratory we are in partnership with to consult with our Japanese advisers *yikes!*. I am really scared! I get clammy hands whenever I think about it. Last Saturday, my tummy ached like it never has before. I think I am becoming acidic. My friends said it is probably "stress ulcer". Fortunately, it has not recurred so that is good.

I will be going to Washington D.C. as well. I just found out yesterday. I am happy because then I will get to use my visa already and not on my own dime too. More than that, I will be able to attend a conference on my field. Hopefully, I will get to meet people working on my area and also get some insights. I am also hoping against all hopes that I will get to present my work because that can do wonders for my confidence. I would also like to catch Wicked. I hope. I hope. I hope. :)

I have been wanting to see Wicked for a long time now. :)

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

A Few Good Men

I have the deepest respect for men who know that no material wealth will ever make-up for character and genius. Those who live and buy within their means and aspire for more not so they can buy more but to build a bright future. They understand that there is no need for overcompensation and that a deep-seated respect is more than enough to make a simple shirt, a pair of slacks, worn out but clean shoes are enough to make them shine. They underatand that the honorable way is the only way to make money.

They will never compromise their integrity and values for any price as their desires in life go beyond those that can ever be bought from the store nor do these desires can ever be cheapened by a price tag.

These men are the fathers I hope for the future Filipinos.

Friday, February 04, 2011

Obsessions, Frustrations, Inspirations

I was so caught up with my newly-cut, temporarily straight-for-a-day hair that I forgot to mention how wonderful my Sunday went. It started out with a morning run, a nice, simple breakfast followed by a hefty, uber unhealthy lunch topped with yummy dessert, unplanned grocery trip, amazing company and bountiful laughter, raves and rants. I do not think I will tire of these things.

I opened my email today. I did not like what I saw. I have been praying for this but I did not get it. I wanted it to get comments on my work. But the thing is, I got the comments on my work. Nice comments actually, just not in the way that I wanted. I will try again though. There's bound to be another chance. *hopeful* My adviser is very encouraging and very supportive. I get most of my inspiration from her. We are blessed to have her in the laboratory. Really. :) Thank You Lord for her.

I have finally figured out the algorithm I have been trying to understand for days now. I found the dissertation where it came from and the dissertation explained it so well. Other papers were unable to explain properly.

I think I may have an algorithm already. It is not quite perfect yet but at least I am getting there. My RRL is not done yet and I have received a new paper that I have to look into. I hope to finish by next week. :) *crosses fingers*

I also want to try Bikram Yoga. I am obsessing... Really. I want to try yoga in a 38C temperature and sweat buckets! I have tried doing Tai Chi twice already in the past two weeks. I cannot say I thoroughly enjoy it but I think it is helping me be more patient. I will give it a try again next week. As for the Bikram obsession. I am really hoping I can squeeze it into my schedule. I was unable to run all week. Darn. I hope to run tomorrow. I have not been getting the right amount of sleep, perhaps yoga will help me sleep.

I hope to get myself into shape because I am going to be an emcee, a reader and a prayer leader for the wedding of the century! No, not the royal wedding but quite close! *haha!*